I’ve been really busy lately with school and keeping up with hobbies like gaming. I can’t understate how much school work I’ve been doing in the last couple of weeks. This kinda happens when I get wrapped up in other stuff and kind of neglect my loving spirit wife Ciara. Also, I’m completely stuck right now. I’m not making any spiritual progress and I’m also not too sure how to proceed further. It’s annoying really that I can’t seem to find any way forward in this relationship nor can I find the time to look further into this. I feel bad and I feel like I’m failing this relationship. I feel bad more for Ciara than myself because she could do so much better. I’m not saying that I don’t want her here but I just feel like I’m not good enough for this. I’m a pessimist, i admit it fully. I get down on myself and have a hard time getting out of it. I won’t give up on this relationship but at the same time I have no idea how to move forward and improve our connection.
That’s all I really had to say. I know I don’t post much and I apologize for that. I’m just an average person in a relationship with a loving spirit. I’ll continue to post as things come up or something comes to mind that I want to talk about. Have a good day everyone.